i want to preface it by saying that the following is NOT a commentary on anyone i’ve ever dated. I truly believe that the women i have met in my life have only contributed positively in one way or another.
Relationships have stressed me out and I wanted to look at why. Its one thing to realize that I shouldn’t be in a relationship, its another to figure out what got me to that place. These are some reasons i’m looking at:
I struggle to deal with the fact that women often react to situations emotionally rather than logically. This is how God has chosen to make us but for me I have a hard time with this difference. I think everything out logically and I feel like any decision made on emotion is a bad one. Is this too much of a generality? probably but it is a reason.
Another thing is I don’t see a lot of women who are able to avoid making marriage and kids goal #1. This is a big sticker. And another generality/opinion. But I do get frustrated when I see girls who struggle because they can’t be happy single and they make finding the next guy their main priority rather than pursuing hobbies or whatever. I wish there was a way I could help but I don’t know where to begin a lot of the times.
I think sometimes I look down on women because of society’s overiding focus on sex and the proliferation of pornography. These things devalue women yet at the same time are extremely addicting to men. I know this has contributed to some negative feelings I get.
These things lead to a lack of respect and in some cases it ruins my ability to trust a girl or even want to give her a chance to be someone great. I want women to do great things…and I think that being in a relationship holds them back. Thus making it easy for me to push them away, sometimes harshly.
This also gets me to thinking about whether relationships are even biblical. I have this sorta fantasy where if I do get married, its without any relationship at all. Its just marrying my best friend. That feels right, feels Godly. I think I’m starting to believe that relationships, especially in the modern day, don’t allow a person to be themselves, to focus on the right things, or even to worship God correctly. Instead it becomes about pleasing the other person, and usually there is a physical involvement which further contributes to problems.
I think someday I’ll have to overcome these premonitions if I’m to even be friends with women and I’m sure its gotta start with fixing things in my own life that contribute to viewing women this way. It’ll happen but in the meantime it’ll be difficult for me to properly relate to some people.
Guess I’ll just go get a lane. 
enjoy the self era, ku
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currently watching: News Radio Season 3
Ok, back to back 1st round tourney losses to 13 and 14 seed teams, after roy NEVER lost a 1st round game (and still hasn’t). This should be cause for alarm and I’ll explain why.
First off, I like Bill Self. I have followed him since his elite 8 run with tulsa to his taking advantage of what Lon Kruger already turned around at Illinois. Self is a good guy and a smart guy. He’s climbed the ladder about as perfectly as you can in college B-Ball but I think he may have climbed to high.
The guy can recruit like no other. He’s gonna get cheeseburger all americans every year. Where I question him is his X’s and O’s gameday coaching ability. This guy gets outcoached constantly. I dont think he puts his personal in the best offense and defense(forcing roy’s players to run the high-low?, refusing to press more this year?), I don’t think he can draw up a great play when needed (we saw a lot of close losses this year that exemplify this), and really a complete inability to run a half court offense.
I think self wins on 80% talent and 20% other team’s ineptness. When it comes to facing a team with a good coach that plays team ball self’s teams lose. I don’t think ku sniffs the final 4 ever under self (self has never been there in his career) and frankly doesn’t have what it takes to really coach up a team to play winning tournament ball. Especially when its a neutral floor, with neurtal refs that call it close, and much better opposing coaches.
If i’m ku, i have to ask myself am i happy with good big 12 finishes, tournaments every year, and early exits and, if the right teams get upset, maybe a sweet 16 or elite 8 (remember that run in ‘04 when ku played ill-chicago, pacific, and uab to make the elite 8?) Is it worth the risk to make a change? I don’t think so. Which is great for me because I’ll continue to enjoy watching ku choke.
Pictured below: First ku coach to EVER lose 2 first round games in a row.
Hey hawk fans, you have this to be happy about–at least the ku players shook bradley’s hands after the game.